When we started this blog, I thought for sure I would be on it posting uncontrollably, or at least daily... I suppose it would be a pitiful state of existence if I lived to blog, so I'm forgiving myself!
BACK TO SCHOOL! Woohoo! I am almost excited about the normalcy and structure that the school year brings. Summer is delightfully random, but trying to work from home with both kids in tow is a tremendous pain. Some of you know I've recently realized that I am both ready and wanting to be back in a school setting. I am always happiest when I am volunteering or visiting the kids' classrooms or just hanging out in the waiting area at pick-up time... My last experience in front of the classroom reminded me how very hard it can be to juggle teaching full-time and parenting full-time, so I thought I'd apply for a position as an assistant. Well, I reckon my years of experience and qualifications are not enough to get a return call from the district office in these parts, as I have not been interviewed (nor, needless to say, hired) at this point. I suppose it would have helped for me to apply earlier in the summer when there were more openings and fewer applicants, but I didn't have my AHA! moment until it was almost too late to do anything about it. Turns out other totally qualified folks I know have had the same problem - the district office won't call back. Disturbing, but I am not giving up.
The hard part about all of it, other than the blow to the old ego, is the trusting God part. I am always pretty certain about what I WANT to do or what I am WILLING to do, but I am not always in tune with what the Almighty would have me do. It seemed like a no-brainer -I apply, they call me, they hire me, I'm happy, the end. But, it isn't working out that way. I wonder what is up God's sleeve?
Now, I have a perfectly lovely job - my boss is completely wonderful and supportive, he lets me define the way I want to work, my hours are completely flexible, and the pay is certainly decent. BUT, the flexibility means I am always doing a little here and a little there and by day's end, I feel like I've been working all day, even if I've only put in four or five hours total. There's very little about real estate in general that makes me feel like I'm making a positive difference in the world - sure, I suppose I make a difference to the clients I work with, and I know I've made a difference in my boss's world, but as much as I enjoy his company, I really grow weary of doing something I don't love.
What a whiner, eh? Good job, good boss, good money, but not satisfied. Wah wah wah, Meesh, right? But I know it is possible to be both employed AND happy with what you do... I am just waiting for those things to coincide.
Maybe this is why I don't blog a lot - I get started and can't seem to finish. It isn't like I don't have a TON to do - for work, for the kids, around the house, for my volunteer positions... but it is a pleasure to just sit and write and vent a bit. Even if nobody will ever read it!
Anyway, if you happen to read this, say a little prayer for me and mine for the new school year. I am going to throw my name in the hat to substitute (even though I can't make a living of it) and see what the ten-day count brings... Then I'm going to get my certification current so I can pursue more positions... Then I'll probably be back on here complaining. Crazy.
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